I recently found this quote during a two hour binge session on Pinterest:
Relationships. It’s more than just the dates, holding hands and kissing. It’s about accepting each other’s weirdness and flaws. It’s about being yourself and finding happiness together. It’s about seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
This quote put a few things into perspective surrounding my current and past relationships. After reading this, I knew the man I was seeing was not the person I wanted to be in a relationship with. His imperfections I did not appreciate or accept. Annoyance filled my body during conversations. Nothing about his personality, lifestyle and goals enticed, inspired or enthused me. I found him arrogant, immature, selfish, unaware, inexperienced, and naive.
Looking at many of my relationships, including my most recent, I wish someone shook me to force the fog blinding me to lift. Actually, many of my friends tried relentlessly but I chose to ignore their wise words. Now in my mid (to late) twenties, I’m starting to see things more clearly.
I have been in and out of relationships for the past 10 years and have come to the realization I am much stronger by myself than with a man that cannot make me happy. I feel like I have been forcing myself to fit into the lives of these men and have lost myself every time. I am proud of the person I am today and want a man that can keep up with me, not hold me back.
For the first time in four years, I will officially call myself single. I have finally shaken the fog that has been blinding me since my first serious relationship. I am currently at a more happy, secure and okay place with myself than I have ever been. At the end of the day, if I’m okay with me, life’s coincidences will take care of the rest.